Hey, guys;

Remember that one uncle I have that I don't particularly like?  Well, had dinner with Mom's side of the family and, of course, he was there.  I didn't really talk to him at all besides, "Bye," at the end of everything. 

I was sitting at the table talking to (I think it was) Mom saying how I just knew I'd gain weight this month because of exams and then Christmas right after.  I mean, what with all the food, sleep, and studying, then coming home to MORE FOOD!  He just happened to be at the table getting food at the time (the table is too small for everyone to sit at so we just kind of scatter to wherever we feel) when I was tlaking about this and all he said was, "Oh wah."  If I wasn't across the table from him, at a family dinner, and if he said that to one of my friends, I think I would have decked him.  I mean, GOD!  How insensitive can he be?

My aunt and uncle who live at this house are also sort of strict with the dog, I guess they don't want her to be fat, I don't know.  They don't usually feed the dog scraps or bones from the table.  She was also getting in the way at the time and they were scolding her.  The same uncle, again, says, "This is Canada.  We treat dogs like family here.  Go home."  All I could think was, "Annndddd what is your background, huh?  You aren't native to this place.  Besides, WHAT is "Canadian"?  It's freaking MULTICULTURAL!  That means there are DIFFERENT NATIONALITIES HERE!  There is no ONE thing that makes us all Canadian.  We just live here.  Why don't YOU go home?!" 

He's so damned annoying and good at ruining everything.  I still don't know how my aunt ended up with him.  If my boyfriend were like that, I would have punched him so hard he'd vomit and left him for good.  Luckily for me, and my boyfriend, he's a real good guy.  He's quite alright being on equal terms and he's not a tick about me "being out of the kitchen" as I've seen so much of the Internet being morons about.  This is one of my favourite traits about him.  That, and he's completely okay with having a girlfriend that is pretty aggressive.  I mean, when I'm really frustrated, I need to hit something.  No, I don't hit him, if that's what you're thinking.  I used to be in TKD and I really want to go back because 1.  I am rather out of shape now, and 2.  I need to let my frustrations out. 

Anyway, besides my uncle, the dinner and my family were all fantastic.  I love them all and wish my other aunt and uncle and their kids could have been there.  I miss them so much and I hope they have a fantastic holiday.

Happy holidays to everyone and I wish you all the best!

Until next time,
Dusk

Hi guys!

Just finished my fourth exam this morning.  Bright and early.  I'm so glad I have time between this one and my last one.  I miss sleep.  I don't even know if I got six hours of sleep last night. 

My mom came for a visit today.  We had lunch, when she left she told me to take a nap.  She said I looked tired.  Boy, do I feel it.  Took the rest of today as a day off from studying because, let's face it, four straight days of studying subjects for almost back-to-back exams is pretty killer.  Also, Mom told me to. =P  The last exam is the one that I'm also most worried about, so I need to at least let my brain rest a day so that I can get back into the studying. 

Dad's instructed me to go to bed as he knows I'm tired and I just can't handle things anymore.  He's distracted me with Amazon for a good number of hours.  I was thinking about what to get for Boyfriend and he suggested that I see if Amazon has what I want.  Well, not exactly, but I think I got him something that he might like just as much, or even more.  I'm so excited to get the stuff now.  I really hope I'll be able to sleep with all this excitement going on in my head...well, at least it isn't as much stress and panic as it was for the past few days.

Anyway, I'll be off.  Hope you're all doing well.

Until next time,
Dusk

Hey guys,

Sorry about not writing much recently.  School and all, you know.  I've also been feeling a tad empty lately.  Not a hungry empty though, more along the lines of emotionally empty.  I wouldn't quite say apathetic though.  It just sort of feels like there's a hole in me and I can't fill it.  It hurts emotionally and it makes me very sad. 

It's been around a month and a half since I last saw Boyfriend for Thanksgiving.  I'll only be able to see him for two to three days before Christmas, then he's flying off to see his family for the Christmas break.  I really hope that none of you think poorly of him for this.  It's been even longer since he's seen his family and I do feel that it's important for him to see them too.  Whenever we're together (in the same city), I feel like I monopolize a lot of his time and I think it's nice that he sees his family.  In fact, I feel like we should have lunch or dinner with his family again or something.  It was fun the last time, so why not do it again?  They're amazing people even if they weren't his immediate family.

Regardless, I'm glad he gets to see his family again.  The week or two of his seeing his family must feel almost like the few days that we get to spend together between weeks to months of separation because of school.  Especially since they are further away.  I'm sure he appreciates what time he has with them every time he gets to see them.  It must be hard being so far from them.  They sound like amazing people and I'd love to actually meet them one day. 

Anyway, I hope you're all doing well.

Until next time,
Dusk

Hey Guys,

Sorry I haven't been posting much.  Been spending the week with my boyfriend.  I haven't seen him since Christmas Eve when I had to see him off to Vancouver.  We were only together for 3 days then.  This time we had a whole week.

You'd think we'd get used to this whole being apart thing after a while now.  But, honestly, I don't think there is any getting used to this...it just hurts every time we need to separate.  Sure it's only for a while, it's not like we'll be apart forever, but it still hurts.  There just is no getting used to this.

I swear Dad is getting irritated at me breaking down emotionally just about every time we need to see him off, but I can't help it.  The longest he's been away from Mom is just a week for her business trips.  It's not like it happens all that often either.  Boyfriend and I are separated for at least a month at a time.  With, if we're lucky, only a week to be together.  Sure, there's summer and all, but we're both looking for jobs, and it doesn't necessarily mean that we'll be working together.  Besides, how long are we going to have to wait until the next summer, right?

Like, sheesh, way to be insensitive.  Thanks. 

I'm really sorry if you guys were looking forward to some happy, cheery post, but I really needed to get that off my chest.

If you're reading this, I miss you so much.

Dusk

Hey, Everyone!

If you haven't seen on my previous post, I went to go see The Woman in Black recently.  I haven't been able to sleep well since then.  I don't know if this is a good or bad thing.  Good in the sense that the movie definitely did what it was meant to, but bad since I'm not sleeping well.

Also, in case you haven't heard, Boyfriend is coming back soon. He had to watch The Shining for his Philosophy and Film class.  He managed to wake up late and miss it so he's going to get that.  I told him not to watch it yet because I want to watch it with him. 

Being the good boyfriend that he is, he questioned about how good of an idea that really is since I'm already spooked and he had to try and comfort me so many times last year during my Mystery and Horror Literature class.  He's only had to comfort me once this year...being for this week starting Wednesday night when I watched the movie.  I told him that it shouldn't be as bad this time around since I watched The Shining for my Mystery and Horror class and besides, this time I have him holding me, so it can't possibly be as bad, right?

We'll see.  If it traumatises me more, he, and you guys will definitely be the first to know.  I must be the least rational girlfriend he could have.  I still sort of question why he picked such a self deprecating, seriously negative, dark, and irrational girlfriend even after having reached our anniversary.  I must say though, since we've started going out, I've been feeling a lot better than I usually have.  I still have my strange bouts of being down, but a normal person isn't happy all the time, right? 

Well, when he feels he has an answer, I'm sure he'll tell me.  He's such an amazing guy though, I love him so much and I'm so thankful that he's held tight to this relationship for so long already (has never been in a relationship prior, so a year actually seems kind of long considering the two of us never expected our first relationships to last so long).  I don't know what I'd do without him.  Time would definitely seem to pass slower considering the fact that I look at assignments and exams to be milestones that I must get past so that I can get closer to being able to see him again.

Anyway, I guess that's enough for tonight.

If you read this, Boyfriend, I love you. =] <3

From the computer of your crazy little blogger,

Dusk

Hey, Everyone!

So, today is Chinese New Years Eve and Mom's making a huge dinner tonight for the family.  My aunt and her family are going to be over for dinner and it's already been pretty crazy.

A couple of family friends came over this morning to wish us a happy new year.  They brought over some fried treats, and another brought over a cake....I haven't even seen the cake yet...we'll probably be eating it tonight.  It's really nice at home. 

Despite the fact that we're all busy running around cleaning and shopping for food, this weekend has been pretty relaxing to me.  I, honestly, have no idea why.  Maybe it's because I know that my family won't set fire to our food...or the house...

Oh, yeah!  For something completely off topic now, remember how I slipped on my way to class not long ago?  Well...the bump has gone down a bit, the bruise looks...bad...but I guess it's getting better.  Hurts whenever something touches it, though, which means I need to keep it away from Mom, then.  Whenever you have a bruise, you never tell my Mom.  She'll look at it and be all happy and poke at it and say, "does it hurt?" with the happiest childlike voice. 

Anyway, back on topic, you know how I have a bump and bruise from the fall?  Well, I went skating last night with my...half cousins?...I don't really know how this second cousin, half cousin thing works...any who, they're small and so, so adorable.  They were just learning to skate, and I was holding one by the sides like parents do and skating around with her.  She was wearing figure skates...we were doing fine for most of the time, that is, until her toe picks caught the ice and she, somehow, fell backwards while I went forwards.  Lucky for her she had 4 layers of padding.  She was laughing and got up.  I was stuck for a moment because I was afraid of crushing her when we fell, so I had to catch myself on my hands and knees...SO, of course, being as ridiculously injury prone as I am, I now have two bruises on my left knee and one on my right. 

Would you believe that my sister also has an injured left knee and my brother an injured right?  Yup.  They got those from basketball...we must be coordinated in injuring ourselves or something, this week proved to be quite crazy for the three of us.

Well, that's all I have time for, need to go help Mom in preparation for tonight and try to clean without hurting myself more.

I'll let you guys know how things go.  Also, in terms of my hair, still not blue...maybe next weekend....maybe.

Hope you all are well.

Keep it safe!

Gong hei fat choi!

Dusk

HI WORLD!!! =D

I got a new phone today because my old one decided that it would screw up its display before I went back to school.  So...new phone, new shirt (Christmas present), and new...hair?

Nope.  My hair's still the same as it was last time you checked in.  The blue didn't happen yet.  Next week maybe.  These two weeks have been packed with get togethers and everyone in the house got some variation of a cold...lucky us...Mom seems to have gotten it worst.  I'm not sure what's up with Dad or my brother and sister.  I just know they're sick too.  Mom started it ALLLLLLLLL on Christmas day...brilliant Mom...

Oh, well.

I hope everyone's feeling better soon.  I'm back to school tomorrow morning, so the four days at school will, hopefully, be enough time for me to recover...unless my roommates are sick too...then I'm doomed...we'll see.

I'll keep you guys posted.

In the mean time, I have to help make dinner.

Adios!

Dusk

My boyfriend's coming back today, I'm crazy excited, but sad at the same time.  You see, he's arriving today, but he's leaving on the 24th.  So, I really only get one full day with him.  I'm really glad that I'll get to see him again.  It's just not the same over skype.  We haven't been together since Thanksgiving, that's about 2 months there. 

I'm not one of those girls who HAS to get a gift for holidays or anniversaries, all I really want is just to be with him again.  I wish we had more time than just these few days, but then again, a few days is better than not being with him at all. 

Also going to visit my old high school in a couple of hours with some of my friends.  Haven't seen them since the summer at least.  I REALLY want to see everyone again, but I don't know if I'll be able to see them all in these two weeks.  I hope I get to see most of them though.  I've already met with a couple of friends and had a great time.

I got more caught up on Harry Potter.  Officially at Half Blood, but I didn't get to finish watching it, so I'll need to fix that.  I also need to fix the fact that I watched the first half of a two part episode of Doctor Who and I still haven't watched the second half since Monday.  So, that needs to be done as well.

Oh!  I'm going to colour my hair blue! ^_^  I have the hair dye and all, just need to trim and bleach my hair.  I'm actually really excited about this.  I'm not entirely sure why, but it'll be blue and I'll probably be quite content with it for a good amount of time.

I'm told that I'll probably go get it bleached tomorrow or the day after.  I really hope my parents don't get me anything for Christmas now...since I'm going to a hair dresser's to get my hair bleached, it'll probably be expensive already.  Not to mention, they paid for my schooling! @_@  I actually feel like I should do something for them, but I don't know what...If you guys have any ideas or suggestions, let me know.

Thanks a plenty!

Dusk

So, it's been two weeks since I've last been home.  Not long I know, but long if you have to live with roommates who don't clean up after themselves leaving you dying in a toxic wasteland of an apartment...I'd say it's not really that bad, but I kind of wonder how much I'd feel like I'm lying to you.

Honestly, it might sound ridiculous, but living with girls is not as awesome as you'd think.  Mind you, I've never really liked girls.  Being a girl myself, I still prefer to have guy friends.  They're a lot more straight forward.  I mean, if something is bugging them, they'll come right out and say it.  Girls?  Oh no, no, no.  They'll hide it and just maybe ignore you all day or something, I don't know.

You'd think they'd be cleaner too, but NOPE.  There's always dishes in the sink, on the kitchen table, trash everywhere...I can't even eat on the kitchen table anymore.  I have to bring my food into my bedroom if I ever want to eat where it doesn't smell like the rotting food from the stupid little filter we have for the drain.

ANYWAY, getting to what I really meant to start talking about.  I'm FINALLY home for the holidays!  4 months gone, 4 more to go.  Yes, I am counting down until I get to move out.  I REALLY don't like living in that apartment...if anything, next year, I want to live with my friends or alone.  At least I know my friends clean after themselves and I actually get along with them.  They aren't the girliest things in the world.  That really killed me about these roommates.  But my friends, we met over the summer, living with them was the best!

...Wow...I'm deviating from what I want to talk about a LOT...yeah, so home after 2 weeks of Hell which was kindly interrupted by one of my best friends at school, Nicole!  She had me over for the weekend, and it was awesome.  Definitely different considering I've been home every week.  But now that I am home, it feels so...strange.  Like I'm more of a guest here.

I don't know if I like living away from home or not.  The two weeks I was away with my university friends was bliss.  I found home really restricting before that, but you know, that's kind of how it is.  But then, moving out means more freedom, and as cliché as it is, with more freedom comes more responsibility.  Moving out for the school year was BLOODY HELL in comparison.  Different roommates, different habits, all girls.  Again, I stress my dislike for girls.  The girls I hang around with, are not THE girliest, and even the one that is, isn't annoying in that stupid girly sort of way.  By "stupid girly," I legitimately mean stupid and girly.  I can't STAND my roommates...

Anyway...this is getting really ranty, and I apologize.  I will stop now.

More to come,

Dusk