Hello All,

Today, I thought I would share with you one of the experiences I've had with sexist jerks.

Last night, I went out after skating with my best friend and the guy that is supposed to be the skate patrol.  I say, "supposed to be" because I find that he is so lacking in his job that it is sad and ridiculous that the town even hired him. 

You see, as skate patrol, he is supposed to be authoritative and, basically, be the safety regulator of the ice.  But, he neither wears the jacket allowing people to see him, nor is authoritative enough to have people listen to him.  Last night proved that he does not know what he's to be doing nor is he worthy of such a job.  It may not be the best paying job, but to be a safety regulator, you would expect that the town would hire somebody with 1. basic CPR and First Aid skills and 2. knows how to at least handle a crowd, I mean, that's what this entire job is about.

Somebody fell and blacked out on the ice last night, and he did not even know enough to clear the crowd off of the ice for when the paramedics were to show.  Instead, my dad, best friend, and I took over that.  My best friend is a life guard and the moment he saw that she was down, he went into full life guard mode.  Sure, the skate patrol person called the paramedics, but he could have should have cleared the crowd off of the ice.  Even more-so, he should know how to handle these sort of situations in general.

After skating, skate patrol guy, my best friend, and I went to Starbucks.  At some point in time, this guy says, and looks straight at me as he does so, "Girls always never know what they want."  For a moment, I stop to think back and try to find a time where I didn't know what I wanted.  Sure, there have been a few times, but everyone goes through that.  Then, being the tick that he is, he says, "See?  You don't know what you want."

How the Hell does he know that?  He doesn't know what's going on in my head.  I should have retaliated.  I should have said, "I know what I want.  I want to punch you for that comment and walk away.  I want to tell you that you suck at your job.  I want to tell you that ever since I've seen you 'take over' as skate patrol, I knew you wouldn't be good for the job.  I wanted to take over your job since I've seen your smug, dirty little face set foot on the ice as skate patrol.  I would too, if I didn't go to school in another city.  But, most of all, I know that I do NOT want you to reproduce and pass on that disgusting mindset of yours to your potential offspring."

I also should have thrown a punch at him and missed, let him go with a warning.  Should have told him, "Next time, I will not miss.  You know why?  Because I will want to hit you even more the next time around.  Do not cross me again.  Do you understand?"  Of course, my best friend and this know-it-all jerk haven't seen me this angry.  I don't expect much of any sort of reaction from him.  I would repeat myself, "I said, DO YOU UNDERSTAND?"  When he answers, I would tell him, "That is why nobody listens to you on the ice," and walk away.  I don't know if my friend would follow me.  If he would tell that lowly turd that he went too far.  But, I would hope that he would.

I'm sorry about the crazy rant-style post today.  I just really needed to get that off my chest.  I also really need to go back to TKD to let the stress and anger out. 

I thank you, folks, for listening.  I hope next time I post will not be because I'm angry.

I hope you're all doing better than I am at the moment.

Until next time,
Dusk

Hey guys!

So, Boyfriend is back at school, I'm starting again on Monday (yay...) and everything's relatively fine and dandy. 

Over the summer, I have gotten four of his shirts because he outgrew them and they were still in decent condition.  Needless to say that I've been wearing them.  Well...two actually.  One to sleep in, one to go out in (for the record, I have no idea how he kept that white shirt SO white...neither of us are particularly neat and we're both clumsy as heck).  The other two are dress shirts, both of which I can wear rather casually.  Except one is a bit too big so it'll have to stay unbuttoned...which is a shame.  I really love the look of it.

I've also been talking fairly regularly with one of his friends.  He's a real pleasant guy to talk to, I really wish he could see that.  He's real sweet and nice.  It's a shame I have to wait a year to actually meet him, but hey!  Definitely worth the wait.  He's an interesting one. =]

I'm not particularly sure about how I feel about going back to school, I mean, yes, my friends will be there, but at the same time, my friends from home won't be.  I haven't seen much of them this summer either what with our jobs and all.  I wish I could have spent more time with them.  Being away for nearly two months doesn't help.  But, whatever. 

I think it's safe to say that I won't be going to another field school next summer, so I should have more time to hang around everybody.  At least, that's what I'm hoping. 

Not entirely sure how coming home from school for weekends is going to work yet.  There's this one friend that I usually take the train with once I reach downtown, but he's working right after school now, so I don't want him to be late.  Not to mention in second term, I have classes right when I normally take the train, so not sure how to handle that yet.  I guess I'll just take it as it comes.

Anyway, I guess this is just my little rambling update about the summer.

I hope you've all been doing well, and I will see you all soon!

Dusk

Hey guys.

I don't know if I'm excited, or sad.  I'm going to be leaving home and Boyfriend for six weeks again soon.  I love the idea of going on an archaeological dig, but at the same time, I finally get to be with Boyfriend again.  I don't want to leave him again.  Not after so long of being apart. 

*sigh* A few days before I go.  I'm really not ready now.  I need to pack again.  I need to make sure I have everything, and most of all, I need to make sure Boyfriend knows that I love him.  I don't want to leave him, but I need to just for a bit.  We'll still be in contact, but it'd be difficult since I'll be working all day long and presumably quite tired at night. 

I haven't gotten to see many friends in the time that I've been home.  I do feel bad about that and I do suppose that it would have made me feel better instead of falling into this rut.  But we'll get there.  We have all summer, right?

Well, anyway, I just really want to be able to see people.  I want to be with them and I want them to know that I love them.  Society does not allow for time anymore.  "Family time" and "social time" are barely existent when there's school and work to be "done." =\

I guess we'll work this out one way or another.

Anyway, that's all I have for now.  I'll talk to you guys again later.

Dusk

Hi everyone!

I finished exams this past Thursday and have been celebrating with Nicole by watching Doctor Who and Teen Titans! =P

Being Human will be the next thing to continue watching and I'll probably be watching the Sherlock Holmes series soon too.  My friend from back home has introduced me to Sherlock on our way home one day on the train, and I wanted so much for my assignments and exams to be over so I could watch.

NOW I HAVE TIME!!!

We also went to see the Hunger Games movie.  It was quite good, but I think the camera work could be tweaked a little, it almost made me motion sick. @_@  The movie has been quite good otherwise though, it made me want to cry.

Well, anyway, I will be going to see more houses for next year today with my parents and moving out of Nicole's.

I'M GOING TO MISS YOU, NICOLE!!! Dx

But, we will have our time. 

I get to see my high school friends again soon, Boyfriend included.  I've missed them all so much!

We will have to hang out when we aren't working or something this summer. 

Oh!  I'm going on an archaeological dig this summer for a month and a half!  Ian will be there and we are going to be outside ALL DAY LONG!!!  This is going to be interesting. =]  I'll let you know how it is if I'm not too exhausted after doing that all day.

I'm so sorry that this post has gone everywhere, but so much has been going on! @_@

I hope I haven't confused you guys too much.  But, regardless of that, I hope you're having an awesome time!

Until next time when, hopefully my mind is a bit better organised.

Dusk

Hey, Everyone!

Thought I'd tell you about my mess of assignments...well, I guess it isn't that many, but when I even think about working them all out, it feels like a lot.  You see, just before the end of Reading Week, Nicole told me that I have a proposal to do for Reading Drama.  What I didn't realise was that it was actually just the outline for it.  So there I was panicking like a mad child about having to write six pages for Monday...little did I realise that I read the wrong part of the syllabus. 

I ONLY needed the outline, not the actual proposal which is due later on.  Crisis diverted...only sort of.  I also have the rough draft of an essay due this Friday, the actual essay to write, a research paper to start for Archaeology, AND the final proposal for Drama.....fun.

If I actually do plan things to work out, all should be fine.  But, having my brain, I would be thinking about anime at such a bad time...I just spent my break this afternoon watching the first three and a half episodes of Blue Exorcist.  Smart me...I think this is just a result of stress and the recent bout of depression passing...I guess you can't really call it depression, but it is just feeling really, really, REALLY down...it's getting better now.  I think what I really needed was just some companionship...even though I wanted to be alone. 

I noticed that when my roommate got back that I was feeling a bit better.  It started as that little bit of fake smiles and all that, but then Nicole came by.  Thank God that she did too.  That made me feel a LOT better. =]

If you're reading this, Nicole, thanks so much! =]

It's tough to do when you're really down, but seriously, being with your friends, even when you want to be just completely alone to mope helps SOOO much.

Anyway, more on that another time.  Class is starting soon.

Hasta la bye bye,

Dusk

Hey, Guys.

Sorry about the lack of posts lately, it's been crazy.  Last week I was really down in the dumps, when I got back up, I ended up with two tests and an essay to write...fun.

Came back home today, spent some time downtown with a friend since he goes to school there.  I thought I'd wait out his exam outside of the classroom and just study with the time that I had.  As I would know, being one to sit in the hallways all the time on my own, a bunch of people would pass me while I quietly worked away.

I was fine up until one guy walked passed me and did that strange clicking noise with his mouth that some guys do when they find a girl attractive.  I ignored it and kept at my studying.  He stopped and told me that there was a midterm going on inside the room I was waiting by.  I told him that I knew.  He assumed that I was in computer science, but nope.  English.  He walked away, and I returned to my Archaeology notes.

A few minutes later, I was still studying and he decided to reapproach me.  Yup.  So, we ended up having a bit of a dialogue.  Turns out, like me he was waiting for a friend, but not to come out of the midterm, out of the computer lab, I believe it was.  We talked about school and our backgrounds, this entire time without exchanging names.  I hoped it would stay like that.  But, alas, he came to realise and I was screwed.  I did just meet him, and sure, I guess the name isn't too bad.  I only gave him my first name, but later on I ended up telling my last name too and he asked me to search him up on Facebook.  To be honest, I hope he doesn't find me, because I don't really have a plan on adding him...

A while had passed and it had finally clicked in my slow brain that he was flirting with me!  Before and after I told him I have a boyfriend, he flirts with me!  Even moreso, he asked me if I was busy tonight, "tonight" being Friday night since I'm writing this at midnight, and asked if I wanted to go and have some fun.  This and the fact that he mentioned alcohol at some point screamed "STRANGER DANGER!"  I let him know in my own way that I couldn't.  What I really said was, "I...I don't actually live around here..." as I gestured out the window and in small circles with my hands...I must have looked strange...but, hey, I don't communicate well with people I don't know...

THANK GOD that not long after he asked me out, my friend had come out of his midterm.  I had been hoping he'd finish early throughout the conversation, partially because I had been interrupted in my plan to study for the two hours he would be in his exam and because nobody has ever flirted with me like that before...if anyone had, it wasn't serious flirting.  They were people I knew well and they would just be fooling around.  This was for real! 

So, I packed up as quickly as I could, hopefully, without making it obvious and left with my friend, while the boy told me "See you."

Don't get me wrong, I do feel bad that I wanted to just ditch this guy as quickly as I could, but at the same time, I didn't know what to do.  I've never dealt with that before.  It was strange.

I told my friend the story and he laughed.  He told me that when he saw me talking with this boy that he figured I would have already known him.  He knows that I'm generally pretty quiet and that I don't make friends that quickly.  He was a bit surprised actually that it had happened, as was I.  Again, no one has actually flirted with me like that. 

I searched him up on Facebook when I got home, but I didn't add him.  I wanted to know who I was dealing with.  It turns out that he knows one of my friends.  I'm not sure how well though.  So I sent her a message and am now waiting for a reply.

I am hopeless sometimes...

I actually do hope that I don't run into him again...partially because I wouldn't know what to do, partially because I don't want to worry my boyfriend, and partially because...I really wish I had given him a fake name.

Well...that's all for now, folks.

Until next time,

Dusk

My boyfriend's coming back today, I'm crazy excited, but sad at the same time.  You see, he's arriving today, but he's leaving on the 24th.  So, I really only get one full day with him.  I'm really glad that I'll get to see him again.  It's just not the same over skype.  We haven't been together since Thanksgiving, that's about 2 months there. 

I'm not one of those girls who HAS to get a gift for holidays or anniversaries, all I really want is just to be with him again.  I wish we had more time than just these few days, but then again, a few days is better than not being with him at all. 

Also going to visit my old high school in a couple of hours with some of my friends.  Haven't seen them since the summer at least.  I REALLY want to see everyone again, but I don't know if I'll be able to see them all in these two weeks.  I hope I get to see most of them though.  I've already met with a couple of friends and had a great time.

I got more caught up on Harry Potter.  Officially at Half Blood, but I didn't get to finish watching it, so I'll need to fix that.  I also need to fix the fact that I watched the first half of a two part episode of Doctor Who and I still haven't watched the second half since Monday.  So, that needs to be done as well.

Oh!  I'm going to colour my hair blue! ^_^  I have the hair dye and all, just need to trim and bleach my hair.  I'm actually really excited about this.  I'm not entirely sure why, but it'll be blue and I'll probably be quite content with it for a good amount of time.

I'm told that I'll probably go get it bleached tomorrow or the day after.  I really hope my parents don't get me anything for Christmas now...since I'm going to a hair dresser's to get my hair bleached, it'll probably be expensive already.  Not to mention, they paid for my schooling! @_@  I actually feel like I should do something for them, but I don't know what...If you guys have any ideas or suggestions, let me know.

Thanks a plenty!

Dusk