I am...

Tonight, I am sad.
I know not how or why
I simply am.

I have seen my boyfriend,
My family,
Talked to my best friend,
Done my readings,
And spent time with a few of those I love.

It sounds fantastic,
Wonderful,
Definitely better off than many could ask for.
So then, why?
Why am I sad?

I know not why. 
I am.

That is all I know. 
I am.

Things could be so much worse.
I could be dying.
I could be dead.
But I'm not.

Why must I waste my time this way?
Why must I feel this way?
I don't understand my existence.
I have things so well
So much better than others,
I'm sure.

But, again
I must ask.
Why?

I just am.